The World's Strongest Little Girl

Well, for now it looks like what was bugging me on the inside is gone- emphasis on for now. I mean, I feel little twinges of it and today I'm unreasonable angry at everything, but it doesn't feel like before. I think I have the girl to thank.

It's a heavy burden to put on such tiny little shoulders, but holding her makes me happy. It makes me forget and not care about all the other bullshit out there. Yeah, I'm tired. But for some reason it doesn't seem like a bad thing when I'm watching her watch the world the only thing I really care about is doing right by her.

I just hope it continues on like this.

Happy Thanksgiving

To all you all who stop by regularly and those who don't, Happy Thanksgiving!

Even if you don't do the holiday, I hope you have at least one thing in your life that you're thankful for. At least one. Life kicks you in the ass and even when it's dark and dreary and everything is fuck, just make sure you have that one thing and hold on to it for all it's worth. Even if it isn't much, just be glad you have it.

What are you thankful for?

Is This Considered Irony?

So on TBS for the last week or two they've been advertising the hell out of some special they have called "Earth to America". Apparently they're having a bunch of comedians (I don't know how Leonardo DiCaprio fits into the comedian role but hey, maybe there'll be a surprise?) get together and telling jokes in support of (or I guess against) global warming, the environmental issue of the moment.

Please don't read into that I'm pro-global warming. I'm more of an anti-everything person.

But what is weird to me about this whole deal is it's taking place in Las Vegas. Yep, Sin City, where they're growing at epic proportions out into the surrounding grass lands, sucking up millions of gallons of water for water features in an area where water is rare and sucking up more electricity than probably any other city in the US, next to NYC or Los Angeles. How much global warmth do you think is generated by all those damn lights?

So why the hell is there a comedy show for the environment in a place that if anything is the epitomy of what not to do to the environment?

More Advice

If you think it'll happen, it damn sure will. Don't mix that up with what you want to happen.

When sending out mailers on your direct mail campaign, make damn sure the people you're flooding the mailboxes of with your junk actually like you and your product/service.

A bare ass is sure to shit on you. A bare hoo-hoo is sure to piss on you. Watch yourself.

Never set your hat on the bed. It's bad luck.

Don't try to write comedy.

Don't pick up dry hitchhikers in the rain.

If you wouldn't talk to them at them at the grocery store don't talk to them at the doctor's waiting room either.

C'mon January

I know all this will pass. But damn I'm tired. Been here since a quarter to six and I did get what I wanted accomplished. However, I'm starting to feel the five hours of sleep and all the caffeine has me jacked. I so could use some bourbon and a cigarette. Alas, I don't smoke and I think my employers would frown on a little something extra in my coffee.

And then there's the stress of the push and pull. I know I just need to bear down and ride it out. But in the end none of this shit will matter. All that matters is getting home on time nowadays. So I'll keep the early mornings for working while they sleep so I can see their pretty blue eyes when I get home.

$7.50 That'll Go to My Beer Fund

Rent. I musical I had no interest in ever seeing is now a movie I have no interest in seeing.

Now I'm Responsible

She made it into this world safe and sound. My little girl, two weeks old today.

It's amazing how quickly she's growing. I get sad when I look at pictures of her from her first day until just this morning and know how much she's changed. She's bigger and prettier than she was even the first time I laid eyes on her. I get even sadder when I realize how much I'm going to miss.

It's also amazing how quickly we fell in love with her. We knew we would; it was just a matter of her getting here. But to the depth we fell- incredible. As soon as the air hit her tiny lungs she had me wrapped around her tiny little finger. She looks like her mama did at that age, which is good because I'd feel bad for any little girl that grows up to look like me. Now hopefully my little girl will get her momma's brains too.

Everything is the same but different now. Shit that seemed important isn't. It's hard to find a rationalle for what I do at work except I know I need to in order to take care of her basic needs. I guess I felt that way before. But now, but now it all seems even sillier. I guess that's to be expected though.